Journaling…….

Trying to think of feelings evoked from talking to my counselor last week. 

Alone and unprotected come to mind. I spent a good bit of my childhood trying to find someone to pay attention to me. I guess any attention worked; good, bad…

I want to jump back to adulthood. I’m overwhelmed and miserable right now. I’m parenting 4 kids alone and bungling it, I’m sure. I’m a horrible example. No energy, motivation, self discipline. 

I’m in physical pain all the time. Have I mentioned no energy?? 

I don’t know how to help myself….

It’s a Monday…

I’m tired and grumpy. It’s a Monday. I’ve done nothing but drive here and there. It’s a Monday. Everyone is annoying me, making me mad, or making me cry. It’s a Monday. I can’t do it right, the way they want it done in the time frame they want it done in. It’s a Monday. They don’t like the dinner plan, they’ve snacked through everything and complain that there’s nothing to eat. It’s a Monday. 

I think I need my anxiety meds because it’s a freakin Monday!!!